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Journey to the Center of the Why

Self-Development May 5, 2022

I've experienced and learned repeatedly... struggle, pain, and being uncomfortable are all signs of growth.

My world was upended when I was diagnosed with ADHD in November 2019.

Guess what happened four months later?

The world was upended yet again!

Needless to say, the second time around I had a bit of experience with questioning everything.

My journey had me learning about myself at a deeper fundamental level.

What parts of me are me, and what parts of me I thought was me, was ADHD? Separating my personality from my behavior and then some.

It's been quite the journey since November 2019. The best way to share that journey with you, dear reader, is to quote the Story of the Butterfly for you.

A man spent hours watching a butterfly struggling to emerge from its cocoon. It managed to make a small hole, but its body was too large to get through it. After a long struggle, it appeared to be exhausted and remained absolutely still.

The man decided to help the butterfly and, with a pair of scissors, he cut open the cocoon, thus releasing the butterfly. However, the butterfly’s body was very small and wrinkled and its wings were all crumpled.

The man continued to watch, hoping that, at any moment, the butterfly would open its wings and fly away. Nothing happened; in fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its brief life dragging around its shrunken body and shrivelled wings, incapable of flight.

What the man – out of kindness and his eagerness to help – had failed to understand was that the tight cocoon and the efforts that the butterfly had to make in order to squeeze out of that tiny hole were Nature’s way of training the butterfly and of strengthening its wings.

Sometimes, a little extra effort is precisely what prepares us for the next obstacle to be faced. Anyone who refuses to make that effort, or gets the wrong sort of help, is left unprepared to fight the next battle and never manages to fly off to their destiny.

I don't recognize me, and that's epic. The old me could never have even fathom the growth of now me.

I hope you don't recognize yourself later too.